Welcome to Havneby's World

My name is Havneby. I'm 24 and I enjoy drawing, 3D-modelling, amateur web-development, gaming and rollerblading! I also dabble in making music, video editing and programming.

I plan to host more images of my OCs here, stories, things that interest me and maybe comics. There are some links on the sidebar that'll show you around and give you some OC information.

Animated GIF which has Havneby as scrolling text. On the right side is a tan pony with salmon pink hair and yellow eyes.

Stay true to yourself.
Welcome to Cyber Heaven.



There is nowhere else to put this. My thoughts have more frequently delved towards those of suicide. I'm unsure what to do at this point. Too abled to ever get the financial assistance I need too mentally unequipped to hold a job without feeling like it's all meaningless. What the fuck can I do? What the absolute ever living fuck can I do??? This isn't sustainable. I can't do this. I need to be rid of this forever and ever. Seriously, what was it all for? What is it all for? There will never be a job that opens up which I could even apply for, let alone enjoy. There will never come an opportunity for me to release myself from these shackles.


Really loving this feeling of existentialism. Took a ride on my scooter and spent a majority of it thinking about the sentence "What was it all for?" And as I scooted, I couldn't help but feel empty inside. What is it all for? What am I building up towards? It feels... Meaningless. I feel as though this is related to art. What is my life without creating art? What do I create art for? Myself? Others? A feeling of not having wasted my time? There are so many issues I currently feel like I'm facing, but they're shrouded in fog. Will everything be alright in the end? I don't know. Will I find a reason for it all? I don't know. Will my life be one I want to live? I don't know.

I don't know anything.


Been in a slump this past week. Felt anxious during working hours today, but I think it'll be okay... First day back after a vacay after all. Still been drawing, but have felt less motivated about things in general. Only done two artfights this year, and considering how things are looking... Probably won't do more. Ordered a dress and skirt which ended up being way too big for me, so I had to return them :/ not great. Decided to try watch what I eat a bit closer, so... we'll see how that goes I guess. Only related because it'd make buying clothes easier. Don't have to go to the most overpriced store there is/purchase online.

Part of my slump has been feeling underappreciated, really. It doesn't feel like any of my insights or inputs are worthy of discussion anymore. Perhaps I'm simply too predictable or boring. I've found myself trying to go for jokes I know have landed, only to find them falling flat. Bleh. Good that nobody reads this I suppose. Finally a place where I can just... complain about life events. I don't wish to be a burden either, which is the main reason I have nowhere to talk about it. Well, that and my problems with being vulnerable in front of other people. Really, even my drawings don't seem to garner much attention, not that it's necessarily the reason that I draw. The issue is that it doesn't feel worth sharing what I create when people have a lack of response to it. I'm an incredibly social person, so when I don't get any social attention it just makes me sad. Makes me feel like I'm not as fun to be around as I think.

While I understand that these thoughts are all most likely just in my head, people are busy after all, it's not easy to keep them at bay on my lonesome. Positive social interactions are the proof against the thoughts, so when they don't happen as frequently it's impossible not to second-guess everything I say. Truth is, I'm already a fairly deliberate person when it comes to social situations. This deliberation being made, only for it not to hit just right doesn't help my current feelings.

I don't know, I'll get out of it eventually. If you read this... Do I even know you, or are you simply a passerby?


Not looking forward to the end of September/early October I guess.

As if having a job makes it any easier.

At least I'll have a new computer sometime soon...


So my job seems secure, which is nice. Might be able to move this year, and also earn some dosh. Pay back my student loans a bit. Was commisioned again, this time because of my Paprika x Velvet drawing. To be honest, I keep seeing things that I dislike about that one, but this commision I feel pretty happy with. I haven't really drawn quad characters... EVER, so it's a new challenge, but I'm enjoying it.

Besides that I played some more TFH last night and had a good time. Though, I might've gone a bit too hard, haha. Hoping to play more this night as well. Had good discussions on morality and over-policing of other people's online presences. Nice to find more like-minded people. I'm glad, and flattered, to hear that I've been the target of silent admiration again. One doesn't really know how many people enjoy one's presence until the people say so. It's difficult, however, because people are prone to staying silent. Makes me wonder just how many people have given up art or posting online because they felt that nobody cared. Maybe nobody did. One will never know.


Finished college and got a (hopefully permanent) job. Got back into ponies and have been playing Them's Fightin' Herds. Pretty fun game, I'm a Paprika main :P. Met some cool new people through a mutual friend which has been nice. I haven't really kept in contact with anyone from masto, and I never made any proper friends on the old twitter. Got yet another girlfriend, and yet again it ended. Welp. At least it wasn't due to a lack of trust this time, but I'm still soured by it all. Basically nobody reads this, so I'll share this with you, dear viewer. I properly wish I'd never met her, things would be easier.

Besides that I'm questioning if I'm a girl again. Keep feeling good when imagining myself in that way, heh, and this time there aren't any feelings related to a girl holding me back. That's what happened last time. My feelings surrounding gender were so wrapped up in my ex that after the break up I thought of going by Roger, if you can believe it. My thought process? Roger's a very "gay man" type of name. Still wanting to lose weight so that it's easier on me, though. Feeling good about idealised variants of oneself is all fine and dandy, but untangling those feelings from one's self-perceptive issues relating to weight is nigh impossible. Probably is just me being a bit of a wanker, but it's not really about denying it. It's more like... Wanting to be 100% sure.

Anyhow, that's it for now. Might actually try and keep this blog more updated. It's good for me to have a hole I can speak eloquently into.


I've neglected to do a lot of the things I wanted to so far. It was ultimately too much to keep myself busy in that way. Would rather not be burnt out all summer. I did finish recording all of Dishonoured. So there's that of course. I'm okay with how things have gone so far. Will be doing artfight again this year. Might spend some time finding the accounts of people who I could attack. Collect some refs before it all starts. We all know the site is dead for the first week anyways.


Well, here I am again. Typing into a digital diary of all the shit that's been going on in my life. Finished the semester, wow that was shit and stressful and all the worst things. Not great, to be honest. But who am I kidding? Of course it wasn't going to be great, I had a lot of responsibility in my life. Got a girlfriend, lost a girlfriend, still have my boyfriend though. Don't think polyamoury is my thing, really. Very stressful, feels hard to give enough time to each, and having one long distance while the other was right here... sucked. Feel at ease now that it's just me and my boyfriend. Things have a way of going sour when you add more people to the mix. Generally speaking I could tell you that I don't feel too bad, but honestly it really sucked to lose her. But, in the end we weren't right for each other. I was so obsessed with proving that I was the best partner that I forgot to take care of myself. Need to stop being other people's therapist.

I've planned out quite a productive summer. I was going to type in something self-deprecating, but let's twist it around. I'll be proud if I can accomplish even half of what I want to do. It's very ambitious, and a break could be useful, but I can't deny that it feels freeing to know that I don't have any obligations. For the next couple of months I could really jump in and make something for myself. The first of the plans is to make a game. Not a finished one, mind you, but a prototype of what could be a full game. The other plan is to make a video about Dishonoured and it's politics. The third is to draw a lot. That's the true goal, really. Truthfully I want to go back to basics and work on fundamentals, but I also know that I could just finish the second chapter of my comic. That would be more than most have ever done.

I just wish it were easier for me to deal with my emotions. I've been feeling a nagging negative cloud for a little while now, and there's only so much I can do to fix it. I just wish I'd never started posting on that blasted social media site... Sure, I made some money, but the aftermath is that I've got negative associations. I deleted my account on there. Something in me wants closure, but I know it'll be for nothing. Why set myself up for failure? I don't want to go back to that.


Redid the website so that it's using grids and flexboxes proper. It's also responsive, so it should change layouts once you make the browser window small enough. Been thinking of making a comic system so that I can upload my comix up here.


Did a bit of extra work on the site :) mostly just back-end stuff. My buttons used to be hard-coded which meant each button had it's own code. Just fixed it so that I simply pass some variables to my function. Essentially turning my script file into nothing more than a single function at this point.


Hooooo boy! Done with the second semester of college now so I have... a lot of free time until the next. What that means, as you might expect, is more updates! Thought of a game I could try making on here. So I'm super psyched about the possibility of doing that. Otherwise I want to try and redo a lot of this site. The weird and specific nature of it is lovely, but I wanna make it friendlier to smaller screens LOL. Honestly, typing this out right now so late that it's almost early again is pretty fun... I forgot how much I enjoyed dicking around on the web with my own damn site. Also thinking about rebranding to be a webmaster" because that's genuinely badass.
There's something so gratifying about hardcoding my own text into my website in this way. There's a certain permanence that you don't get anywhere else. Speaking of... I need to add an image of Trish. I actually did a drawing of her, so now I can actually show her off :D


OKAY HUGE UPDATE to the website!!! Everything's on a single page, I've added some javascript so that you can click onto things rather than have everything visible at once!!! AND well, that's about it. Oh and I put a wrapper around everything and made it a flex-box. Overall a pretty big change that doesn't do much to the actual site. Only issue will be the loading times with worse connections, as there's a whole lot more to be loaded at once. Maybe I'll be able to update that at some point? Who knows. Really I need to do a whole proper revamp of it all, adding cool new styles to my page and making it look sleek and modern, but this'll have to do. I've been itching to do something other than occasionally watch TNG and yt videos, so stay tuned for more.


Wow time has flown past me and it's been a while since I've touched this site at all. My first semester of college is pretty much done now! Both video production and design methods have concluded and now I'm stuck just... doing nothing I suppose. To be honest, I haven't really been doing much in the way of creative projects, but I'll chalk that down to being pressured by school. I always tend to neglect things when I have other, typically more urgent things to think about. Thinking I might redo this site so that all the content is on a single page, but that might take a bit more time. Also been considering focusing on web-stuff pretty much full-time so that I can maybe earn some side-cash while going to school. It'd definitely help a tonne.
Anyhow, it's nice to do something with this website again. Even if it is just a simple blog post.


It's finally September!!! Autumn is here, and it really doesn't feel like it yet haha!
Let's get one thing straight however! I'm totally psyched for the leaves to go all orange, and the ground to be empty of all the tiny bushes and insects. Especially ticks, yuck! The best seasons are autumn and then spring. Winter gets too cold and too wet, there's never any snow anymore. Summer's wayyy too warm to do anything. Even this year it got so warm for a short period that you could barely be outside without boiling. It's definitely a lot cosier to snuggle up in some warmer clothes and feel the nice autumn breeze blow past than to sweat under the sun.
Website-wise I've been working on adding a background image, and also have been making a page for the story so far. I'll add it to the sidebar when it's ready.


Been reworking the website today!!!! Fixed up some of the issues I'd have later if I wanted to redo the look of the site.
Also using REMs instead of PXs for sizing, because of the varying sizes people's default font-size is. Added some links to the sidebar, and am thinking about adding the sidebar to each page so that you have easy access around my site.


So! Been a little while, hasn't it! Not done much, but I did start college ^^
These first weeks have been a bit boring, because the subject we've mainly had has been this "basic IT" thing. But yesterday we finally started video production so that's fun!
Otherwise I've been buying stuff, like books. Got a new desktop, but it didn't POST so I'm gonna have to send it in to the retailer ;w;
Anyways! Have a good day, and I'll update this some other time.


I've been working on artfight this past week! Here's my page! If you attack me I'll be sure to counter-attack! >:3c Otherwise I've been playing a lot of Siege ranked, and wow. It's not going well LOL. So far I've gone from Gold IV to Bronze II, and I'm only dropping further haha. There's a lot of things I could say about the game, but my biggest gripe right now is the fact that it doesn't seem balanced at all. Isn't the whole point of ranked that you play against equally matched players? Cause it sure doesn't feel like I am. Anyways, I'm just ranting.
Finally, I've taken an interest in Chinese! We'll see if I manage to keep it up this time.


These past couple of days I have been working on a couple things. I've lined up an office chair that I want to purchase, and have been working on a minecraft server where we've been creating an entire democracy. I've taken it upon myself to write the laws, and wow is it heavy work.


This is the start of my blog. Here I will talk about my day to day life, and things within it.

Colby is a chocolate coloured labrador retriever.

He makes music for a living, and is married to his husband, Maxwell.

The music he makes is a genre I call Technical Soft Punk.

Drawing of Colby
Made by Artemis.

Max is a ragdoll cat.

Max makes art and is a front end web developer for a living. He's happily married to his husband, Colby.

He often makes art with the focal point being nostalgia

Drawing of Maxwell
Made by Amalie.

Bailey is a romney sheep.

He's dating a girl named Trish. Before that he was dating Richie.

He works at an where he recently became the owner.

Drawing of Bailey
Made by Madison.

Richie's a swan.

He's single, and works as a programmer both for himself and a company. Used to date Bailey.

While the company he's at doesn't quite respect him, he's okay with it, as it's temporary.

Drawing of Richie
Made by Artemis.

Trish is a great pyreneese.

She's the manager at a , and is dating Bailey.

She finds that she needs a change of work. Management is too stressful, but it pays well.

Drawing of Trish
Made by me!

Snack Frosty is the ice cream parlour which Bailey owns and operates.

The name is a play on words of the military term "stay frosty".

Bailey's been working there for 7 years as of now.

Max and Colby met Bailey while he was working. The three hit it off well, and became good friends.

Richie was introduced later when Max and Colby took him there for a snack. It was then that Richie got to know Bailey and subsequently got a crush on him.

The restaurant in which Trish is the manager.

Makes simple, but delicious meals. Focusing mainly on homemade style food.

Gets fairly busy at times, which keeps Trish occupied.